Anything else?

i was calling out your name again last night.
I'm not sure if it was because I ate watermelon, or the fact that you said we would still be close...
But we're not.

I know him because of the polar ice gum he always has in his truck.
And his hands, how different they were.

And she...
She always told me I'd feel better in the morning...
And I always believed her until now.

Naustalgic Euphoria

it just fits

nos·tal·gia

näˈstaljə,nəˈstaljə/

noun

1. a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

eu·pho·ri·a

yo͞oˈfôrēə/

noun

1. a feeling or state of intense excitement and happines

gravity

grav·i·ty

ˈɡravədē/

noun

1. 1.

   PHYSICS

   the force that attracts a body toward the center of the earth, or toward any other physical body having mass. For most purposes Newton's laws of gravity apply, with minor modifications to take the general theory of relativity into account.

Heart

if I showed you your heart

would you recognize it?

Or would you be too scared to accept 

That broken down, torn up, piece of meat?

I hope, with all of my might,

That if you ever see your heart,

You will see it for the heart that it really is.. 

Gold, warm, and beautiful.

We were sitting...

..in my car. That "all weather" type of song was on 

and it was just you in your grass-stained shoes, 

and me in my Chaco sandals. 

I wanted to hold your hand and I could tell you wanted to hold mine.

So we ventured out of the car on the crisp afternoon,

The kind where you can almost feel the winter

Speeding toward you.

We stuffed our chilly hands

Deep into our pockets.

We walked down that long

Winding

Dirt road

Until we practically forgot the world.

That was when you held my hand.

But it was still cold so we stuffed it into my coat pocket.

I couldn't remember how we got there...

All I knew,

Was that I was just existing with you.

If you really knew me // REVEAL

hi.
my name is addie spencer.
i love driving.
i don't usually hang out with other people.
and i enjoy spending time in really comfy clothes.

if you really knew me, you would know that my sister and i used to be enemies but now we are inseparable.
my brother and i are just the opposite.

if you really knew me, you would know that i am scared of being alone...
especially when it gets dark and my mind starts to wander...
and i get a bit nervous...

if you really knew me, you would know that when i buy clothes, they all tend to be similar in color... and that i prefer gold jewelry to silver.

i may be plain on the outside but my soul is a neon-pinkish-blackish-gold.
and it eeks out all of the colors my words wish to bleed.

if you really knew me, you would know that i love getting cute notes
and that i feel more comfortable hanging out with boys...
than girls.

if you really knew me, you would know that i feel as though i am digging to the bottom of my soul... but i know i am only scratching the surface...

this is me i guess
...enjoy :)

Food for Thought

he's not even paying attention
his headphones pull at his thoughts..
he doesn't even try to think anymore...
just losing his mind to the sound.
but who can blame him.
we all seek escape.
we all find it in some sort of release.
an outlet......... isn't an outlet so,etching that gives?
it gives electricity, light... answers.
maybe all this time our outlets have been what has powered us.
just food for thought......
a head resting in a shoulder...
on the shoulder of someone ignoring the noise with more noise.
on the shoulder of someone i saw at the airport...